So, if you are out there, I promise things will get better. Just keep pushing on, one day at a time, and maybe find a teddy like person in your life, I was lucky his actual nickname was teddy and he's been such a sweetheart to me and so many others too. He's not perfect, but for me he's really perfect and most importantly someone who made my life so much to live for right now, and we're still on the battle that he accepts a gift from me for what he did, but as he said waiting for his birthday.